I have decided to name my mentor as Charity Hensley-Pipkin because she is the most closely related to the work I have decided to do for my thesis (for now). My thesis will be on teacher perceptions of learning centers post-primary education. Basically, it is a really fancy wording for the question - why do teachers stop using learning centers after 2nd grade? Currently, I am writing my prospectus and the literature review is proving to be more challenging than I anticipated. I'm stressed about finishing it in time and with it being close to Halloween I'm kinda wishing I could cast a spell and make it be instantly finished. We will see what the week holds!
I'm a hot mess. ALWAYS. I strive for perfection and never get it right. Im always late, or forgetting something, or bumping my car on curbs. I struggle to balance being the perfect daughter, sister, sister in law, auntie, niece, cousin, coworker, teacher, powerlifter, and friend...and 9/10 I am not even doing one of those roles well. One of my friends (lovingly) pointed out to me that when something is slightly hard or even really tough, my world crumbles. It's been my coping mechanism to react strongly my whole life and only got reinforced by the trauma I've endured. I've believed for so long that I have to react big or pain loses meaning. I need to be more kind and gentle with myself so I can grow and learn to handle situations with more control. I can be in control of my feelings. Through this and reading the book The Road Back to You, I realized I am a four on the Enneagram. I thought I was a two because I have a helpful nature, then a three because I HATE for peo...
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